how i am supposed to fit the emotions, experiences and lessons of the last four weeks into one, concise blog post is beyond my understanding.
it has been quite the rollercoaster ride. i rollercoaster which i would ride over and over again because i know the Lord is gripping the controls. i'm [attempting] to quickly learn how to adapt to my new role. the last time i left pine cove, i walked as a counselor who knew the ropes of counseling. who had little-to-no correction on her staff evaluation. who had enough confidence in her role to be able to coast through an easier week. when i walked back into pine cove for the first time this year, i walked in rather clueless. the only thing i knew of senior counseling was the little we were told at leadership weekend and what understanding i gained from watching the s.c.'s for the last two years. lesson one - just because you've seen job done a certain way, doesn't mean it's necessarily the best way for you to do it. and there is much more going on behind the scenes that i never knew about. i am thankful for the trials and challenges that have come with this new job. i am thankful that coasting is not an option. that if i let my self coast for one second, i will crash and burn. so doubt about that.
i have fallen head over heels for each and every person on my leadership team. i never expected to love each of them so deeply as i do by week three. it's incredible the community you experience when you are all focused and fighting for a common goal. in random, sweet times that we are able to talk, they have spoken so much encouragement and truth into my life. i am learning the importance of telling people things you see in them that offer encouragement. not that they are pretty, or that their shirt is cute, that they always have something funny to say, or that you "just love them." but speaking genuine truth into them about things you see the Lord gifting them with and their potential to be used by Him for great things. i am always understanding the importance of correcting and shaping one another to look more like Jesus every day. we have adopted the idea that if one of us messes up, we all mess up. shouldn't that always be the way it is? i fought it as first which, of course, led me to realize how much i needed it. the differences in each of our personalities, counseling styles, sense of humors and giftings in unbelievable. what is even more unbelievable is how the Lord has meshed each of those into a beautiful team of His co-workers. and how quickly! i am more thankful than i can explain to you.
leading counselors who i have so much respect for is quite the intimidating job. i often feel clueless and wordless. but the Lord has provided great direction in those situtation. ironically, all of camp is that situation. which is why i would definitely crash and burn if it wasn't for the Lord carrying me through.
i am missing home, of course. missing my family - the parents [who blessed me by coming to camp today], my sister, brother and precious niece and my sweet grandparents. missing the baton rouge crew. missing doing day to day life with them and that established community in good ole br. missing my sisters - "abbyashleyandhannah." feeling very scattered from them because the Lord has placed us in four very different places for the summer with little communication options. including the other side of the planet. but i am praying passionately for the Lord to maintain that relationship when we feel like we can't. and missing that boy who has been an incredible encouragement the last few weeks by writing me every day, praying for camp and attempting to share [through snail mail] the good work the Lord is continuing in his life.
time is up. leaving this wonderfully janky dairy queen to go do laudry [a weekend staple] with one of my leadership sisters.
love from pine cove,
meagan / freezestyle
I therefore, a prisoner for the Lord, urge you to walk in a manner worthy of the calling to which you have been called, with all humility and gentleness, with patience, bearing with one another in love, eager to maintain the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace. There is one body and one Spirit—just as you were called to the one hope that belongs to your call— one Lord, one faith, one baptism, one God and Father of all, who is over all and through all and in all. But grace was given to each one of us according to the measure of Christ's gift.